Finally..

Ever since I was a baby girl I had a dream

Cinderella theme

Crazy as it seems

Always knew that deep inside that there would come that day

But I would have to wait

Make so many mistakes

I couldn't comprehend

As I watched it unfold

This classic story told I left it in the cold

Walking through an open door that led me back to you

Each one unlocking more of the truth

I finally stopped tripping on my youth

I finally got lost inside of you

I finally know that I needed to grow

And finally my mate has met my soul

Finally

Now my destiny can begin

Though we will have our differences

Something strange and new is happening

Finally

Now my life doesn't seem so bad

It's the best that I've ever had

Give my love, finally

I remember the beginning you already knew

I acted like a fool

Just trying to be cool

Fronting like it didn't matter

I just ran away

And on another phase

Was lost in my own space

Found what its like to hurt selfishly

Scared to give of me

Afraid to just believe

I was in a jealous, insecure, pathetic place

Stumbled through the mess that I have made

Finally got out of my own way

I've Finally started living for today

Finally, Finally

Cerita Tentang Aku.. Cerita Tentang Dia.. Antara Aku dan Dia

Hai Guys... Hahaha.. Lame x update blog.. huargghhhhhhhh.. hectic week just end td... Thermo? jgn tanye pelis.. tp insyaallah.. i have try my best.. haha.. banyakkkk sgt bende nak citeeee kat blog.. tp malam ni macam penat skit.. baru je pas abeh wat hw math.. sok kene hanta beb.. haha.. ok.. i would like to make a short story.. a story.. yang xde relation dengan anyone yang hidup mahupun mati.. :) ok.. actually nak buat cerpen.. tp disebabkan i am lack of talent in writing.. i would rather make it in my own format.. macam diary a little bit.. but hope u guys can understand it.. LOL.. this story is inspired by.. seratus lima puluh juta by Fynn Jamal.. hmm.. hehe.. so.. enjoy! and plus.. i would like to receive feedback from you guys about my short story.. hehe.. ok.. sambil bace my short story.. jom kite denga 150 juta! 

CERITA TENTANG SEORANG AKU..


Aku adelah seorang yang:

1. banyak cakap :D
2. ketawa selambak..
3. suke gossip.. 
4. feminine.. yeah maybe but not in front of others.. bak kate org.. kat luar ak pakai jeans. kat rumah ak pakai skirt.. kat luar ak tukang order/pau org tp kat rumah ak tukang masak.. kat kelas ak malas bertugas time duty bersihkan kelas.. but actually i am the one who clean my house.. lebih kurang macam tu la kot.. hehe
5. people can describe my attire as jeans and shirts. No skirt.
6. pempuan.. tp jalan macam lelaki.. =.="
7. ganas hu ha hu ha sane sini.
8. kalau gelak satu dunia tau.. kalau menangis pun satu dunia tau.. menangis xpernahnye x klua bunyi.. xdela macam drama melayu klua air mate je tp suare xde.. fake2..(pade ak la).. haha..
9. i have heels.. but i choose not to wear heels.. just sneakers.. paling jauh pun flat.. bukan ape.. susah beb nak jalan pakai heels.. sakit kaki.. kui3
10. ak ganas gile.. tapi type movie ak bukan terminator.. tp actually hindustan ngan korea.. huh? novel ak pulak xdela bace dan brown.. ak bace bikash nor idris.. hikhikhik.. gedik2 skit.. 
11. pegi mane2 paling malas nak gosok baju.. ala xpe janji selesa beb.. haha..
12. dengan kawan2 memang lepas je cakap.. tp.. ak try jage hati sume org.. it's okay if i hurt inside.. 
13. kalau org cakap or kutuk ape pon ak buat muke xtau je.. malas nak layan..
14. suare ak x kecik macam pempuan lain, tp serak2 basah.. tp suke melalak terlebih2.. suare x sedap tp bleh je nak pegi karoke.. kekeke.. 
15. ak suke sangat pakai topi.. sebab ak x suke org puji rambut ak.. blushing2 feminine nnti kang =.="
16. memang xpandai make up.. xlawa mane pun tp natural beauty tu adela kan.. keke.. ah yang penting.. sume bende yang allah jadikan tu cantik.. 
17. ak x suke pompuan menggedik2.. memang kene sound straight..
18. pernah kapel.. tp not from people who really know me.. contohnye.. kelas mate ak xpernah plak tibe2 jadi gile mintak kapel.. or schoolmate.. or study mate.. or jiran tetangge.. or tusyen mate.. or.. whatsoever u should say.. bukan xde minat budak2 yang dekat2 ni.. tapi yela.. petik satu jari je mane nak bunyi.. haha.. tp ak ade prinsip.. never ever confess because you are a girl.. jage martabat beb.. lagipun.. dengan gaye ak mengganas je ni sape la nak. malas dah nak minat org.. sedar diri beb.. haha.. tp ak pun ade hati kan.. LOL
19. tp sejak akhir2 ni..
20. tp macam mana..
21. tp ada die...
22. tp die..????

CERITA TENTANG DIA..

1. 1st day jumpe.. Wahhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!! die budak baru beb.. macam kerek je mamat ni.. ekeleh!! menyampah gue.. =.="
2. sikat rambut nak macam korea... xyah aa tiru hero ak suke.. kecoh aaa!!
3. apepasal ak kene duduk dengan die dlam kelas.. bosanla macamni.. xsuke dok sblah mamat kerek.. perasan hensem.. tau aa pandai rambut korea.. nak nasihat2 suh rajin blaja.. belah! result ak ok kot..
4. tp satu hari...
5. ak dapat markah math teruk.. :( n was crying in the class waktu rehat.. xde org dalam kelas.. huaaaaaaaaa.... ak nih mane reti nangis senyap2.. amek ko.. tengah2 nangis.. tibe2 org bg tisu.. "nah amek!".. pandang atas.. ala kenape die?? ingt kan song seung hun ke bg tisu.. kalau song seung hun oppa kan bahagie hati ak.. tibe2.. "eh jangan la berangan. ak tgh hulur tisu ni. kang tarik balek kang.".. hmm xpela.. rambut ala2 song seung hun pun ok.. *tgn amek tisu kesat muke.. terblushing feminine la beb.. die tarik muke senyum comel.. "ape senyum2???"... "xdepape.. comel jugak ko blushing kan.. ingt xreti blushing.." siot!!
6. sebab markah math teruk.. kene masuk program tutor.. alah kenape die jadi tutor ak.. alaaa... alaaa... xsuke la macam ni.. nanti kene sakat je.. bukan bleh tgk ak senang...
7. satu hari.. ade pompuan gedik yang ak x suke kutuk2 ak.. ak buat muke toye je la.. ala malas nak layan2.. kejap lagi die senyap la tu.. tibe2 die cakap, "eh awak xkenal die jgn cakap camtu.. xbaek" wah baik jugak.. ala ni mesti nak tunjuk gentleman.. xleh caye ni xleh caye.. huh.
8. emmm.. kenape kene satu kelas ngan die, pastu kene dok sebelah die.. ingt abeh skola x jumpe dah.. tp kenape kene satu uni ngan die? kenape die amek course same ngan ak.. ala.. banyak lagi uni len apepasal bleh tercampak kat sini.. =.="
9. ramainye awek uni melekat ngan die.. taula hensem.. rambut song seung hun.. bulu mate panjang.. layan la sume awek kat uni ni..
10. kenape die slalu ngan minah tu je.. weh ak kenal ko dari skola apepasal ko xlayan ak sgt? cis.. ni mesti nak berlagak2 ni ngan ak dpt minah perasan comel... angkutla2 minah tu... =.="
11. kenape kalau die nampak ak, slalu kutuk2 beg ak ke, rmbut comot terkeluar dari topi..kenape kalau ak pakai baju feminine skit je die cakap ak buang tebiat.. :( xbolehke beb.. abeh minah tu pakai skirt high heel sume x buang tebiat ke? ak dah 20 tau.. bile lagi ak nak jadi pompuan.. tp kenape ak xleh lawan balek???? 
12. kenape nak jadi tutor lagi kat uni. xpasal2 ak kene blaja bawah die.. aigooo.. dahla asek menyakat je.. satu hari tu cakap ak teruk blaja malas.. ak melalak kat bilik ok.. dahla kutuk ak.. puji2 minah kesayangan die plak tu.. bute ke?? ak pompuan ok!.. ade perasaan..
13. satu hari.. ak perasan.. kenape ak banyak tulis pasal die dalam diary ak ni.. ish2.. teruk betul!
14. hari ni, maybe allah bg hidayah.. ak decide nk pakai tudung.. pegi masjid india beli tudung banyak2.. tp jeans xleh tinggal.. 
15. kat uni.. die tanye.."emmm.. bile beli tudung banyak2? dah seminggu ak tgk ko pakai tudung.." ... "ooo ak beli kat masjid india".... "oh yeke".. die senyum... perli ak ke.. blahla macam ni.. but... "tp comella..nnti pegila beli lagi"... tp ak... "haaa??? ape die???"... "xde pape2"..
16. kenape ak tulis pasal die lagi???
17. nak cite kat sape ni?? 
18. diary... bleh awak denga cite saye???
19. sebab awak ade telinga yang tuli untuk denga kan.. thank u diary..
20. diary diary.. awak nak tau x.. ramai dlam dunia ni suke tgk saye nangis.. tp ade satu bende kelaka.. dalam banyak2 org yang suke bg saye susah hati.. it turn out.. i like him.. he make me confused.. he stabs me in the back all the time and leaves me behind but all of sudden.. he is nice to me.. macam ayah.. it turns out.. when i'm in front of that person, my heart beat so fast.. i didn't even run but it get's hard to breathe. tp that person suke org len.. aigoo minah perasan cantik tu.. so eventhough i really hate him, i still don't really hate him.. i can't hate him.. ottoke dairy..
21. sejak akhir2 ni ak jadi cheesy.. buwek uwek2 muntah darah..
22. harini.. bleh x xnak pegi kelas harini.. nnti jumpe die..

HARINI: 
HAH!! MANE DIARY AK HILANG.. tertinggal kat mane????
DALAM KELAS??
AYAKKKKKKKKK!!!!!!!! JGNLA ADE ORG BACE..
FUHFUHFUH NASIB BAEK ADE ATAS MEJA KAT KELAS..
LEGA...
MALAM NAK TULIS DIARY FOR HARI NI..
EH KENAPE ADE KERTAS POST-IT NI??
"apepasal x bgtau ak??" ~library esok jam 2, kate nak blaja math same2~
OMG ELLY DAH BACE.. AAHH PEDULI AA ELLY JE.. SOK KAT LIBRARY AK UGUT LA DIE JGN BG TAU ORG.. DAH JANJI KAN NAK BLAJA MATH SAME2 NGAN ELLY N ENCIK TUTOR..
ESOK.. ELLY XDPT DTG.. TINGGAL AK TERKONTANG KANTING PEGI LIBRARY..
ENCIK TUTOR SORANG2 TGH DUDUK MENGADAP LAPPY..
"oi incik tutor.. elly kate die xleh datang!!"
"xyah cakap.. ak tau.." *die tarik muke sarcasm.."ape pasal ko x bgtau ak ek.."
"bg tau ape.. kan ak dah kate td elly x dpt dtg.. bg tau la tu.."
"ko dpt x post-it smalam".. *die buat muke pelik
"post-it ape ni ko merepek-repek ko demam ke aaa.... pp... ppeeeeweiiiiiiiiiiiii ko ke bace diary ak!!!"
"sape lagi...???"
WAAA AK MALU.. AIR MATE DAH MENGALIR DAH NI.. SUARE MELALAK ADVANCE AK DAH KUAR NI!
DIE TARIK AK LUAR LIBRARY..
"kenape ko x cakap awal2..??"
"apepasal ak nak kene cakap awal2??? ngekkk!!!" huaaaa
"sebab Ich liebe dich.."
"bahase ape ko cakap ni weh.. ak nak balek la macam ni.. benci ko suke2 je bace diari ak.. mane nak letak muke la ngekkk"
"bahase tu, balek ko google.. meh ak anta balek"
BONGEK AK MALU OK
MALAM TU
GOOGLE
ICH LIEBE DICH..
I LOVE YOU?? EH SALAH BACE KOT.. PANGGIL RUMATE AK SUH GOOGLE WHAT IS ICH LIEBE DICH NI
"oi.. tu i love you bahase german leee..."
HAH????!!!!!
 FROM THAT DAY ONWARDS.. OUR STORY IS..

Untuk kali keseratus lima puluh juta
Mereka tanyakan engkau soalan yang sama
“Eh kenapa kau masih lagi mahukan dia?”
“Apa kau buta, apa kau pura-pura suka”

Di seratus lima puluh juta kali itu
Di depan semua engkau tarik tangan aku
Yang sedang buat muka kosong tak ambil tahu
Sambil ketawa engkau bilang satu per satu

“Dia mungkin bengis seperti singa”
“Tapi dia nangis tonton cerita Korea”
“Dia mungkin keras bila bersuara”
“Tapi dia jelas, jujur apa adanya”

“Aku lagi kenal dia”

Dah lebih seratus lima puluh juta kali
Aku pesan padamu apa yang bakal jadi
Engkau dan aku ada mungkin tidak serasi
Engkau sangat manis, aku ini pula dawai besi

Di setiap seratus lima puluh jutanya
Aku pun dalam hati semacam tak percaya
Apa kau lihat pada aku jujurkan saja
Terus kau cubit dagu aku, sambil berkata

“sayang mungkin baran tak kira masa
tapi sayang tahan kalau yang salah saya
sayang mungkin saja keras kepala
tapi sayang manja bila kita berdua–

saya kenal sayang saya”

Buat apa dicerita
Bahagia kita rasa
Biar tak dipercaya
Peduli orang kata

Baju ronyok tak apa
Asal pakai selesa
Berkilau tak bermakna
Kalau hati tak ada

Aku lebih bengis dari sang naga
Tapi bisa nangis semata demi cinta
Suaraku keras tak berbahasa
Kerna aku rimas gedik mengada-ngada

Aku mudah baran tidak semena
Mana boleh tahan angin cemburu buta
Dan aku sengaja tunjuk keras kepala
Aku punya manja, kau saja boleh rasa

Rahsia kita berdua..

DIARY,

~AK.. POMPUAN GANAS.. YANG ADE LELAKI MACAM DIE..~

HAHA.. ok tujela cite pendek ak.. xde kene mengena ngan yang hidup or yang mati.. hope u guys enjoy.. i know it is a little bit cheesy.. tp xpe.. i take it as a starting point mungkin.. to improve.. :D

SEE YOU GUYS LATER!!

Temporary End

Three Exam JUST End!

But not hectic week!

Worn out!

Exhausted!

Nak Air Nak Air..

"=.="

So this is temporary end!

.OMG.

Adoiyayayayayai

Perut kembang kempis sebab takut nak exam!!!!

oMo??

*FAINT*

Update.. :D

Hi guys.. First of all, jom kite denga cover firework and grenade mash up by Samuel Tsui. Awesome.. GILE.. super awesome.. hehe.. :D

Ok.. Nak cite pasal my Sophomore year Spring 2011 yang agak hectic skang ni.. :D

New Things I learn from this semester:
1. Siapkan homework awal2..
2. Jangan tido dalam kelas. bg tumpuan sepenuhnye. bile faham senang nak buat homework.
3. pegi kelas, jgn ponteng. kalau dah lambat tu, xyah mandi pon xpe.. LOL
4. Buat homework first, then kalau x dpt baru tanye org. It will be awesome if u get the answers by yourself first without asking others. Then bile dah dpt jawapan baru tanye org.. :D *tp kalau memang xleh buat jgn plak hantuk kepale kat dinding, hehe. pi la tanye kawan.
5. Work in group. This is really helpful. Especially for chemical engineering student.
6. Don't forget what you have learnt from previous sem.
7. Jangan tgk korea banyak sgt.
8. Enough sleep will help u a lot in class.
9. Sit in the front row during the class. 
10. Ask prof often (although yg ni belum terlaksana)
11. Our study is our priority.

Ok.. Banyak sebenanye ak blaja from this sem. macam cool gakla.. ngan SOCIOLOGY 101 yang cool tu lagi... haha.. ilmu sociology ni, kadang2 u will not get it from any engineering class.

Tp this week is hectic,
I have:
1) QUIZ MATH 198 ~ MONDAY
2) HW CHBE 180 AND MSE 150 DUE ~TUESDAY
3)QUIZ CHBE 162 ~ WEDNESDAY
4)EXAM CHBE 180 ~ THURSDAY
5)EXAM MSE 150 AND MATH 198 ~ FRIDAY
+ HW DUE NEXT WEEK.

*FAINTTT!!

*Bismillahirrahmanirrahim, Ya allah, kau bantula ak dan rakan2 ku untuk menghadapi exam kali ini. Sesungguhnya engkaulah yang maha pemurah lagi maha mengasihani. Amiinn

*Just Study.. ALLAH will help u.. :D

Hehe.. Ok tu je nak cite.. sebentar lagi ade lab MSE.. tp before tu nak tido dlu.. hahaha..

SEE YAA

The other side..

Ok this gonna be funny.. =.="

But.. this is a real story..

I was crying, all the way to Rand!

Not because:
    ~My boyfriends left me (refer to previous post)
    ~Fail exam (nauzubillah)
    ~Fight with my friend (mintak jauh jugak)
    ~Sick (ni pon xnak)
    ~Lost something (=.=")


But because:
   ~It is almost two weeks...
   ~That I..
   ~Craving for...
   ~BUFFET at Best OF Indiaaaaaa...
  ~Dreaming of Tandoori drumstick.. :(
   ~Ingt nak pegi hari ni tp..
   ~Huaaaaaaaaaaaa...
   ~Nah amek lagu penantian by kertas:

Sebab2 xdpt pegi india:
   ~Busy..
   ~bangun lambat..
   ~Villa xde..
   ~Kete dah penuh.. 
   ~:(


Ok this whole post doesn't make sense.. tp.. That is the other side of me.. :D.. Pade ak.. kalau craving and menangis for food lagi worth it compare to nanges sbb boyfriend... HHAHAHAHA.. Every person have their own demand.. But, for me.. demand paling penting is food.. When i am hungry, just fill me with food.. pastu confirm dah x bad mood.. tp kalau craving.. memang i demand for it.. LOL.. xpe2.. i can stand lagi walaupun td dah crying.. sebab somehow we have to help our friend first then fulfill my demand.. ni la yang mak ak worried sgt pasal ak.. sebab bleh menangis because of food.. =.=" funny! Ok.. Thanks korang sbb layan post mengarut ni... HAHAHA.. mane ade post ak x mengarut.. tp xpe.. haha..

SEE YOU GUYS LATER... 

Message to all my boyfriends..

I got five boyfriends rite na!! Player? Yeah you can consider me to be a player for now.. =.=" I really try to understand them, love them with all my heart.. I have to.. =.=" it is hard to love five boyfriends at the same time.. but i can let them go.. :( huaaaaaaaa... life is hard for me right now.. My boyfriends keep loving me with all their heart but i just can't give my love to them fairly.. 

So in this post.. I would like to give some message for my boyfriends...

To my dearest Mr. T..

Hi Mr. T.. Susahnye saye nak faham awak.. Kesian awakkan.. Haha.. Tp awak slalu bg saye problem banyak2.. saye xtau macam mane kadang2 nak tolong awak selesaikan masalah awak ni.. Sampai kene mintak tolong ngan kawan2.. pastu awak nak cepat plak tu jawapan.. ingat lagi masalah pertame awak bg time kite baru2 kapel dlu.. saye pening gile nak tolong awak.. awak jgn la bg masalah banyak2 kat saye.. saye bukan pandai sgt nak tolong awak.. kalau macam ni, macam mane sye nak sayang awak lebih2.. huhhhh.. xpe2.. saye try lagi nak faham awak.. dalam mase 3 bulan ni.. saya akan bg kasih syg sepatutnye kat awak.. :D

To My Dearest Mr. M...

Hi darling!.. Mr. M... You baik gile ngan I skang ni.. you pernah dtg in my life 3 kali.. tp yang ni you memang betol2 baik.. thanks for being nice to me.. hopefully i will love you forever.. 1437.. :D 

To my dearest Mr. M2...

Laling aaaaa... I pernah kawan dengan 3 org kawan u dlu.. tp semue kurang berjaye.. i hope our relationship kali ni berjaye la.. hehe.. stakat ni you are being easy on me.. and i love that.. walaupun somehow i confuse ngan u.. tp xpe.. skit2 confuse tu lumrah dalam hubungan.. hehehehe.. 

To my dearest Mr. Mat..

Hi abang mat.. LOL.. abang mat ape kabar?? heheh.. ok.. sy memang berterime kasih laaaa pade encik A sebab kenalkan saye ngan abg mat.. org kate abang mat ni senang nak handle.. Sape yang xberjaye handle abg mat ni bleh jatuh kategori loser.. btol ke abang mat? ok2 xpe2.. i'll try hard to handle u.. hahaha..

And the last one is for my dearest Datuk S..

Hi datuk S. Datuk S ni senang je.. die kaye skit so senang skit kot nak handle.. ahahaha.. ok2.. datuk S.. walaupun banyak character2 datuk S yang I kene hafal.. tp insyaallah kot i can handle that.. datuk S janganla risau ok.. i'll treat you well.. tp maybe hubungan kite akan tahan 3 month from now je.. sbb i am not planning to continue our relationship.. sorry for that.. :)

Okla that's all my boyfriends.. remember.. treat me well ok even though i am not treating you guys well enough.. hehehe..

key term:

1) Mr. T = Mr. Thermodynamics

2) Mr. M = Mr. Matlab

3) Mr. M2 = Mr. Math 198

4) Mr. Mat = Mr. Material Science

5) Encik A = Encik Ashok

6) Datuk S = Datuk Sociology

Hehehe.. see you guys on the next post!.. love you'll!

Memory of 29th January 2011..

Jom denga lagu ni smbil layan blog ak.. why? because i love music.. :D

*sedikit ulasan tentang lagu ni before kite masuk topic utama harini.. :D ak ase lagu ni agak cool la.. haha.. macam chic and naughty.. hehe.. freedom for a while kot macam tu.. :D a new single by avril lavigne entitled "WHAT THE HELL".. kalau best bleh la masuk playlist korang after ni.. :D

Ok this entry is about a day out with my friend after kecewa xleh kluar saat2 cuaca baik di siang hari akibat homework matlab yang melambak.. haha.. so malam tu ak ngan kawan2 gi chill2 around nashville area.. mule2 gi fye.. fye ni macam kedai yang cool la untuk gamerz or peminat2 cd or anime.. so ni la antara gmba2 yang ak snap kat situ..

*sonic! walaupun muke ak agak cacat time ni, tp xpe.. abaikan.. hehehe

*super mario.. ok this is my friend wearing super mario cap.. :D

Ok kat bawah ni my friend waktu ngah otw nak pi NASHVILLE WEST..

Pastu smpai kat Nashville West,kitorang gerak Claire's (kedai accessories wanita) usually kitorang bleh spent about 1 hour kat sini.. sape2 budak laki yang ikot memang usually x tahan ngan kitorang.. tp come on.. lumrah wanita.. hahaha.. better learn to stand with that or else nnti dah kahwen susah unless u guys dpt isteri yang xsuke shopping.. haha.. :D Ni la antara gmba2 yang ak snap kat Claire's:

*DIllot try cincin, tp xleh kluar.. so time ni die ngah kecewa xtau nak buat pe.. hahaha

*crown babe.. hehe

Next kitorang pi ROSS..ok tmpat ni bleh cari shirt, or dresses yang murah2.. :D and xlupe jugak handbag, alat perkakas rumah, kasut.. so kitorang pegi situ nak cari kasut sebenanye.. last2 beli mug.. kekekke

*ni cawan comel.. untuk minum egg nog kot.. comel kan.. especially yang pink tu.. LOLOL.. kidding

*terencat..sori jgn layan. .:D

Next,kitorang pi target.. Target ni macam jaya jusco kot kat malaysia.. kat sini saje je jalan2.. bosan.. amek angen malam2... haha.. snapshot:

*comel kannn.. mangkuk ngan piring mickey!!!

*she is not $9.99 ok..nasib bek tinggi skit.. klu x, nampak clearance kat bawah tu

Disebabkan penat berjalan, so pastu kitorang pi makan kat tgi friday.. snapshot:

So tu jela entry untuk kali ni.. ok saya nak tido.. mengantukkk.. =.=

SEEE YAAAAAAAA